The Challenge

I was told by my Cardiologists yesterday in order to avoid going on medication I will need to lose 15 pounds. That's a challenge that will be difficult. I'm a middle aged women (42) single mother (with a 3 year old), I'm unemployed, I have a house to take care of as well as a mortgage to pay (all the other bills, taxes, car insurance, utilities, and now health insurance). I would say my stress level is over the top.

3 1/2 years ago I lost the 22 pounds to become a life time member of weight watchers, I wanted to be physically fit to go to china to bring Maya home. I was feeling good! Now here I am 3 1/2 years later, with three pounds over my goal weight and I'm faced with this challenge to lose 15 pounds in 6 months. How am I going to get this body to go below the weight it fights me to stay at!

Day 1 of the challenge - 4:18am I'm woken by the terrifying screams of my daughter (who screams go right throw my body), I wake with my heart in my throat as I pull myself out of bed to see what she is screaming about (I know it's a nightmare, they happen every couple of months), I pick her up and tell her everything will be ok and she comes in my bed and falls asleep within two minutes. I lay there hoping that my heart goes back into my chest. This is not a fun way to wake up, adventually I fall back to sleep, at 7:00am Maya wakes me up by telling me she is hungry in my ear continuously. As I roll myself out of bed I realize that my body hurts, what happen to make me feel this way (than I remember I did pilates yesterday), what has happen to me I remind myself that I'm 42, not 22 anymore, you hurt more after doing exercise. How did I get here, I struggle to understand how one day I woke up and I'm 42 I don't like this, I also feel like I have a hangover (I didn't even have a drink last night). I feed Maya her breakfast, made my coffee and tried to read the paper as Maya watches TV for 5 minutes. I get through about 8pages of the paper and Maya wants something else to eat, this kid can eat! So I make her another breakfast. As I'm making her a bowl of cereal I remember that the challenge must start today! So I make my breakfast (egg whites, mushrooms, onions and turkey bacon), the challenge today is to drink water and get some walking in before I go for my interview in Manhattan this afternoon. I will try and continue blogging as I try to achieve this challenge.

The End of March Already??

It has been so long since I have written, I don't know where the time goes. I'm going to try to be better at blogging than I have.

Today I ordered Maya her new bed (full), I had moved her out of the crib a week ago into the toddler bed that the crib turns into but she kept falling out, even with the rail etc. So it was off to bed, bath and beyond to find a comforter for the new bed, we walked in and spotted the set right away, one left and it was full. I can't wait to put in on her new bed.

My baby is growing up to fast, where has the time gone. It seems like yesterday we were coming home from China and now Maya is a three year who is a very independent little girl who reminds me every day how lucky I am to be her mother.

It was a month ago we were in Florida, so I just started adding photo's from our trip!