The Challenge

I was told by my Cardiologists yesterday in order to avoid going on medication I will need to lose 15 pounds. That's a challenge that will be difficult. I'm a middle aged women (42) single mother (with a 3 year old), I'm unemployed, I have a house to take care of as well as a mortgage to pay (all the other bills, taxes, car insurance, utilities, and now health insurance). I would say my stress level is over the top.

3 1/2 years ago I lost the 22 pounds to become a life time member of weight watchers, I wanted to be physically fit to go to china to bring Maya home. I was feeling good! Now here I am 3 1/2 years later, with three pounds over my goal weight and I'm faced with this challenge to lose 15 pounds in 6 months. How am I going to get this body to go below the weight it fights me to stay at!

Day 1 of the challenge - 4:18am I'm woken by the terrifying screams of my daughter (who screams go right throw my body), I wake with my heart in my throat as I pull myself out of bed to see what she is screaming about (I know it's a nightmare, they happen every couple of months), I pick her up and tell her everything will be ok and she comes in my bed and falls asleep within two minutes. I lay there hoping that my heart goes back into my chest. This is not a fun way to wake up, adventually I fall back to sleep, at 7:00am Maya wakes me up by telling me she is hungry in my ear continuously. As I roll myself out of bed I realize that my body hurts, what happen to make me feel this way (than I remember I did pilates yesterday), what has happen to me I remind myself that I'm 42, not 22 anymore, you hurt more after doing exercise. How did I get here, I struggle to understand how one day I woke up and I'm 42 I don't like this, I also feel like I have a hangover (I didn't even have a drink last night). I feed Maya her breakfast, made my coffee and tried to read the paper as Maya watches TV for 5 minutes. I get through about 8pages of the paper and Maya wants something else to eat, this kid can eat! So I make her another breakfast. As I'm making her a bowl of cereal I remember that the challenge must start today! So I make my breakfast (egg whites, mushrooms, onions and turkey bacon), the challenge today is to drink water and get some walking in before I go for my interview in Manhattan this afternoon. I will try and continue blogging as I try to achieve this challenge.